Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Journal Entry #5


Precious experience with bullying in elementary school, her father’s sexual abuse, and the beginning of an exciting adventure at the alternative school are now introduced. One of the evident factors that contribute to Precious low self-esteem is the bullying she has suffered from. She remembers specific comments some of the kids have said about her. In first grade, a boy says, “Pick up your lips Claireece ‘fore you trip over them.” (38) It is surprising that first graders want to bully each other. When I was in first grade, I never wanted to bully anyone. I was more concerned about learning how to play cooperatively with others, share my toys at recess, and make friends. I know that teachers can not be in every place at one time, but I believe teachers are part of the problem. On page 39, Precious says “I hate myself I HATE myself.” Who could ever imagine a first-grader saying this to themselves?

Seven, he on me almost every night. First it’s just in my mouth. Then it’s more more. He is intercoursing me. Say I can take it. Look you don’t even bleed, virgin girls bleed. You not virgin. I’m seven.” (39) Precious is now reflecting on some of the rape she has experienced by her father. She admits that the abuse began when she was seven; her father must have been a really “sick” guy. I am now wondering what causes a “man”, a father at that, to do such a criminal, disgusting sexual act to a seven-year old. Maybe it is the feeling of insecurities within oneself. Maybe he had problems finding women and uses children as a “back up”. I wonder if there are others involved, maybe Precious is not his only victim. Where is his father, and how would a mother respond to there son raping her granddaughter?

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